Sharon "Sherry" Paulette White

I want to share one of my favorite memories of my mom. I'm the youngest of my two sister"s. The day of what I never imagined would be my last morning with my mom. I got ready for work, woke my mom up. Feed the cat's, she went out to the garage to have her morning coffee and have a cigarette. I opened the door and asked her can we leave in 30minutes? She said yes kimberly. I mentioned to her " I know what your gonna be watching tonite! "American Idol"..she said Oh that comes on tonite and of course my mom can't stand "Kara" the mouthy judge. We left the house had a loving mother daughter conversation on the way to my work. When we got to the parking lot at my work. I looked at her and said " I love you" MoM. and she said " I love you too" I asked her please be here at five that's when I get off work. And I said "thank you MoM for the ride to work and I will see you at five. As she drove off I looked back at her as I was opening the door and waved goodbye and she waved back with her beautiful smile. I cherish that moment that I had that opportunity with my mother to say goodbye! I believe in my heart i will see my mother again..Oh I'm glad I wasn't being a little Brat that day. To my loving Mother I will miss you dearly,you left this earth to soon. I know you are in a beautiful peaceful place. You are my best friend, my mama bear and I always will be your baby. I Love you Mommy, love your daughter, Kimberly

Monday, January 18, 2010:

Being Sherry's oldest daughter, I feel bad and guilty for not posting something sooner but I am having an extremely difficult time wrapping my brain and heart around the fact that our cherished mother isn't here anymore.  Her sudden passing was a devastating blow.  After almost a week of her passing, I was finally able to listen to the six voice mail messages I saved from mom.  Something told me months ago to save her voice mails.  I used to delete all voice mails not wanting to clutter my mailbox.  Just to hear her voice was of some comfort, but then realizing that I am not able to call her and hear her voice in real time is something that I don't think, at least at this point, I will ever be able to accept.  I go into denial when it comes to certain things in my life and this is one of those times.  I've been living in a fog for the past five days. 

My mom was my best friend.  She was the only person I could go to when I needed comfort.  If my instincts were clouded, I would go with her instincts and they were always spot on.  I feel lost, scared, and angry that she left us so early.  However, I am so very grateful that she was there to witness the birth of my two daughters, see me graduate from college back in 2004, and be there for my youngest daughter's graduation ceremony from high school.  There are so many events she was present at that I would need a new website to share it all.  She was the one who got me through the tough time when I gave birth to my oldest daughter.  She was my rock. 

For those of you who are familiar with Sylvia Browne (my mom loved her), then you know she has talked about those who have passed on to the afterlife will at times visit their loved ones and get their attention by leaving pennies on the floor.  Because my boyfriend (the one boyfriend my mom really liked, and that's saying something!) always has change in his pockets, I will find pennies on the floor from time to time.  I have picked those pennies up and am waiting to find them on the floor again.  If that ever does happen, I'm not sure how I will react.  I will let you know!

I will conclude my thoughts for now, but will add more later as this is still very raw for me.  When my sister Tracy sent me an email letting me know that our mother's obituary had been posted in today's Oregonian, it suddenly became real to me that our dear, sweet mom is no longer with us physically.  Since she and I did share the same spiritual beliefs, I know she is either living her next life, which I hope is one where she is the Queen of a very posh country and is being pampered, and has her own chef, or she is at the end of her journey and is now with God.  Knowing our mom I'm sure she is giving her opinions constantly.  That's what made her, her. 

I LOVE YOU MOM!  May Angels surround you with peace and so much love.

Carri Shawn

I will miss grandma very much! I have tons of good memories of going shopping with her. Like i belive twice we have been to Powell's book store, and to the mall a couple of times, and just me and her out to dinner. Also she was always there when needed. And I liked that grandma always said what was on her mind. She is a very kind and considerate person. I think the last time it was just me and her that spent time together was when we went on a shopping trip for my birthday. I can't remember where we went first or second or for that matter what ordered we went to those places, but i remembered we went to Claim Jumpers (idk if that is how it is spelled lol)for lunch. I remembered that we didn't need to wait to get seated. I remembered that grandma ordered a salad with strawberries in it, and i got some chicken thing (like almost always) and probally mashed potatoes with it. I remembered i had a hard time getting the chicken off of the bone. For desert we both wanted this cream puff or eclair (basicly the same thing!). So grandma ordered 2, but luckily the waiter said that it was the size of a foot ball! So that saved us from a lot of leftovers! So we just shared one! And before we started to eat it she took a picture of me with the big cream puff infront of me. Also on the way out she told me to take a picture of this GiGANTIC cake, i think it was chocolate cake! Or at least it had chocolate frosting around it along with some nuts i belive. There are a lot of memories that might just take up this whole page and may even add a second, or even a third! I love my grandma very much! And i wish i could of spent more time with her, and probally everyone might be thinking that. She was a specail person to everyone! And I am missing her very much.

I can't believe you're gone. I'm still in shock I think. I keep hoping I wake up from this terrible nightmare. God took you way too soon! We still need you. You were the most wonderful mother a daughter could ever ask for. I will miss you're wonderful sense of humor, which I thank you for passing it on to me. I will miss your sage advice, and many words of comfort. You were so caring and so very giving. You had such a big heart, especially for your cats, or any cat for that matter.

 

 

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 A memory I have was some time last spring a cat had crawled up under my Jeep and I didn't realize it til I was a 1/2 mile down the road. The kitty thankfully was alive but hurt. I didn't know what to do, I was very upset and right away thought... call Mom, she will know. And she hopped in her car right away and came and got the cat and we took the kitty to the pet hospital down the street where she was treated. Mom also foot the bill for that, as I with two children am always broke haha. I was so thankful to her for doing that.